So I decide to change the layout of this blog... because it was time for a new look, plus Blogger introduced some new layout options, and I took advantage. As I was changing the look, however, I was reminded of how many changes have been happening in my own life recently...
You see, I have graduated high school, and I am now an adult, and attending college!
It's absolutely crazy how fast life passes by.
So anyways... back to my point. :)
Change tends to come rather unexpectedly at times, or like in my case, it comes with expectation and anticipation. At first I was completely gung-ho about this whole "adult" business, but after a few months in the "real world" my ecstasy for the change I anticipated has fizzled. At first I felt rather in the dumps about the whole thing... I felt like an idiot for being so un-excited about the transition from "child" to "adult" that was supposed to be the turning moment of my life! After some time had passed, and my excitement didn't return, I started feeling a bit worried. Did this happen to everyone? Did everyone hate the process of becoming an adult, like I now did?
And then it really hit me--- like we're talkin' full force.
I didn't like change.
Period.
It wasn't the fact that I wasn't excited to move on with my life, it was more of a hard reality check that change CHANGES things! The child I once was was now gone, and in it's place my 18 year old shell was left to become a now mature individual known as an "adult". I had finally comes to terms with the fact that what I had looked forward to for so long (that official adult status) was finally within reach, and what was holding me back was the fear of what that change would mean for my life. Now you might think that sounds rather simple, and overly-simplified, but in the mind of an 18 year old adolescent, that was the breakthrough of a lifetime.
Just some food for thought:)
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